GO BUY IT NOW! <333

I love reading - I'm proud to be a nerd - & I read as many books as I can cram in.
I love almost all the books I read, so I don't usually have a favorite.
But I read this & was automatically in love.

& of course, the Sookie Stackhouse novels.
If you watch True Blood, then you should read the books.
Even if you don't, read the books!
This is the first one~


Hope everyone's having a great Friday! :)
Anyone going to see New Moon?
I'm going tonight. :P

I thought I had a lot of Frank Iero pics?
Shit, well, I can't even begin to compare my 2,000+ to cyran9 's, like, MILLIONS of Bill! o.O

I'm organizing all her pics for her for her Christmas present, since I can't really buy anyone anything.

I'm going to be making Tokio Hotel glass pins & magnets for all my TH fan friends! :)
Or I can make you a collage of any band/actor/actress you want.
Just let me know if you're interested!
I'll be posting this in almost all my entries 'til I get you all to cave in & let me make you somethin' for Christmas.

I'm glad I resorted to this post... I was starting to get cranky from all the sorting of TH... LOL.

I started making my list for th_wishlist, but there isn't a lot I want.
I just want to give this year <3

Fresh Prince of Bel-Air & Desperate Housewives.

:)

My school was on fire yesterday, so we were all sent home.
Someone started it in the boy's bathroom. I guess he's been caught, but now it's serious drama because it's a crime scene... :o

Now I'm going to suffer for the next 80 minutes in Ecology. Fun.

I baked 12 cupcakes, frosted them, & decorated them to look like the characters in True Blood.
My back hasn't hurt this bad in a long time.
The muscles in the upper half of my back are killing me, to the point where I want to cry even every time I breathe.

Not only that, but, my mom just got home a few minutes ago & of course she jumps down my throat the minute she sees me.
I almost ran out of the house when she started yelling at me.
It took everything inside of me not to scream back at her. I hate her so much.

& then I put saran wrap over my cupcakes, since I put them on a platter, & most of the gel mouths got ruined.
I don't know how I'm not crying right now.
I can feel the build up in my chest, but I'm so tired, I don't even...

( Day 02 ~ Your favorite movie )

I'm tired of treating people the way I want to be treated & getting not nearly half the respect in return.
Day after fucking day, I deal with everyone's emotions.
Sure, I like that they trust me enough to let it all out, but I'm becoming exhausted.

What about my emotions? Do you think I have someone to talk to?
No, I don't, actually. But thanks for assuming.
I've got LJ, but I usually opt not to bitch about my life & my parent's drinking problems & the fact that I'm abused both verbally and physically.
It hurts so much to keep it inside all the time. It tears me apart.

All apologies on that little rant. :/ Glance over my meme & give me a hug? :(

Aaron made me watch that.
I don't believe it. I laughed.
I'm a horrible person. :(

TGIF!
What a stressful week, maaaaan.

& then next week is Hell Week at my school. D:

I passed 10k, so my next goal is 15k.
I don't think people realize how hard it is to juggle writing a novel with school work, plus family problems.

I need a good distraction.

I guess NaNoWriMers are supposed to have 25k by the end of this week.
Somehow I don't see myself getting there XD
I blame the EMAs/Tom. Mainly Tom, though.

wtf is with my journal not posting everything I type in an entry? >:(

TOP TEN PEOPLE I'D FUCK ON THE SPOT MEME~

Snagged from superiero

1. List 10 celebrities you would have sex with without even asking questions.
2. Put them IN ORDER of your lust for them (10 to 1; 1 is the hottest).
3. Supply photos for said people.
4. Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
5. Tag 5 people to do this too ~ geborenimwinter tearose99 milissabusiness mrbeaky & getthefuckdown :)
(Hopefully more than just 5 of you do this!)

( a kiss a touch never enough )

I am utterly disgusted by the fact that Maine voted yes to ban gay marriage.
I don't know why I thought people around here would change, but for a minute, I did.

I cannot grow up with a bunch of racist homophobes.

Maybe all the stress I've inquired over the past few days is making me overly emotional about it, but it still brings me to tears to think that my own father isn't allowed to get married because people have a problem with it.

Why can't we just love who we want to love?
With the exception of a man or a woman loving an animal because that's how things like the piggy flu happen.

I didn't even get a thousand words on my NaNoWriMo today.
I'm only at 7,384. I'm so disappointed in myself.

Not to mention home life isn't improving much.
We'll just leave it with that little sentence & leave out all the bad parts.

Today was just not good.
& I apologize for flooding your friends page with this.
I don't like unhappy posts, but after talking to qt_2t94 for a little bit, I realized this is my journal & I should be allowed to post when I'm upset.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY tearose99! :D

Hope your day is amaaaaazing, bb <333

While dressing up as Bill last night, things went totally wrong & I ended up being Courtney Love.
Amazing, since I have such a strong hate for her, yes?
I wore Sierra's Nirvana t-shirt & kept pointing to Kurt slurring, "I didn't kill him!"

Screw Halloween ~ I'll dress up as Bill on Thanksgiving. :D!

I'm back home now, but only because my dad basically has me restrained.
The only reason I have internet access is because NaNoWriMo starts today & I have to write my first chapter.

My goal for today is 3k+ words... Think I can do it?

Might as well 'fess up.
I haven't been home in about a week.
I've been living with Sierra instead.
After her house, I don't know where I'm going, but hopefully it's not home.

The Used was pretty fucking amazing.
I don't have time to type all the events of that evening, but maybe soon.
I'd post pics, but, oh, wait, House of Blues said we weren't allowed to bring cameras.
Biggest fuck you possible goes out to them right now.

Speak of which, would anyone be willing to make me a couple Used icons for me? -puppy dog eyes-

I'm supposed to be having a Halloween party on Saturday, but I've got nothing prepared or planned.
Should be interesting, huh?

I snagged these boots at Forever 21 for my Bill costume~


Well, that was my disguise so my dad wouldn't freak the hell out. ;D
& I also bought chain necklaces, but they don't have them online.

Quinn looked so cute in his black thermal onstage... NaNoWriMo inspiration, definitely.
I hope you guys will read it. I'm more nervous than you'd like to think.

Well, Sierra did it for me. Thoughts?

The Used commented me, again. -grins-
I asked them to play Listening on Friday & their response;



It's so weird how close the show is.
Not to mention, I actually have a life now, so I wasn't able to count down like I usually do.

I really hope they play it! Guess we'll have to find out, huh?

Stir fry for dinner. Man, I'm hungry.

When I got home today, I checked my email, then got serious.
I swept the kitchen, upstairs bathroom, both hallways.
Then cleaned the stairs with my bare hands. Ick. omg, don't remind me.
After that, I went outside & saw the biggest spider in all of Maine.
Instead of throwing up & screaming, I raked the yard.
But leaves kept falling, so I filled a bag & called it quits.
& after that, I went over & babysat Lacey for a while.

I haven't eaten since about 11... No wonder I feel so weak & defeated.

As I stated last month, I will list 20 facts about myself so my f-list can get to know me better & strike up a random conversation about a fact or two.
Let's begin, shall we? :)

1. Last night on Facebook, I spammed about 15 people with a baby picture of Tom. Some of my friends initially thought it was me; creepy, not gonna lie.

2. The Sookie Stackhouse novels might as well be my cocaine supply.

3. I love sarcasm, though sometimes it's hard to sort out via internet.

4. One of my favorite quotes is, "I hate to see you go, but I love to watch you walk away."

5. No one ever told me not to put aluminum/metal in the microwave. I once put a chicken pot pie in & the end results were not pretty.

6. My iPod is currently playing Yule Shoot Your Eye Out by Fall Out Boy. Christmas music = ♥

7. I have this weird ability to be able to see boys as men. It's reversed with women, I see them when they were younger. Sometimes it gets to the point where I can't look at the person I'm talking to because it's so weird.

8. It's taken me literally almost 3 hours to think of facts about myself.

9. Seaweed salad + sushi = ideal date dinner. Nom nom nom.

10. I've never finished a fanfic that I've started.

11. Lately I've been listening to a lot of Skillet.

12. I'm on the phone with milissabusiness 8D

13. Now I'm listening to Big Deal by Everything But The Girl.

14. One day, I'd love to go to New Zealand. Maybe even live there.

15. Hockey & baseball are the only sports that interest me.

16. 'Automatic' seriously makes me cringe when I hear even a tiny bit of it.

17.

18. Donnie Darko is one of my favorite movies of all time.

19. I'm going to see The Used for the second time in 3 days!

20. I used to have a pair of blue leopard print shoes that Christina Agulera designed... Oh, & I had the matching feather boa.

Now tell me ~ how long have you been staring at Snoop Dogg? ;D

Woah, so many entries to sort through... Sorry I've been away!
October is so busy for me, especially with planning my Halloween party.

I did a test run for the makeup I'm doing when I dress up as Bill.
Didn't dare try the hair yet; I still have to dye it & get the right products.

& I'm soooo excited that freothuwebbe is going to be Tom's wife in my NaNoWriMo. :D
No turning back no, kid. This is my final idea & I'm gonna pull through with it.

If anyone else wants to be in it, just let me know!
There will plenty of character slots to fill, so don't worry :)

I'M GOING TO SEE THE USED AGAIN IN A WEEK!

It's insane; it crept up so fast, I don't even fucking know!

baby!Kaulitz pics = mega cuteness overload.
Can't get enough. I mean, really, how flippin' cute?



Hooray for having my Writer's Block q! I should screenshot that sucker. ;D

Oh, & um... I must confess:
Josiah is moving back next week, so I've been talking to him again.
I don't even care how much he's hurt me, physically & mentally, I just want him.
I'm falling in his trap. Again. :(

Today sucked the hardest dick I've ever seen.
I'm so glad I'm at home, sipping tea, & listening to Humanoid.
7 hours without it was fucking way too long!

• Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions

mrbeaky (who still owes me a band-aid...) gave me these~

1. If you could be Tom for a day what would you do?
Record Bill dripping wet in the shower. Then proceed to post it on apex, even though I'm not supposed to know what that is. Probably play with myself a little bit, why not take some nudes? Um... After that, I'd probably go for a ride on the Autobahn!

2. Is there anything you'd like to change about your life right now?
Not that I can think of. Or anything that could actually happen.

3. What's your favourite song atm and why~?
Love and Death by ToHo. Aside from the lyrics, I love the way it flows... It makes me want to dance & be in a messy relationship & slap Tom across the face all in one.

4. If you could live in a movie forever what movie would it be?
I'm not sure. I try to stay away from the word 'forever' because I'm a woman of change. I would get bored very easily. But, I mean, if I had to pick, I'd go with The Dark Knight. Nom nom Heath Ledger *_*

5. If you had the chance to steal one piece of Bill' s clothing, what would it be? :D
This shirrrrrt;
Photobucket hates me ~ so it's the "Satan Knows You're A Poser" t-shirt. :)


Happy birthday to daniiellers again ;D

The first thing I noticed about that pic was the thumb holes Tom's hoodie has.
Right there, that's a smooth way of him telling me that he knows I want him more than his twin.
WHO COULD PASS UP THE THUMB HOLES?!

Mmm, I just wanna wear that hoodie day 'n' nite. ;D

Driving around Providence at night, listening to Humanoid...
Yeah, you wouldn't even understand the lust I had for Bill if I tried to explain.
It's so weird, too. I've always been a Tomi girl & since this album...

The more I dwell on it, the more I'll probably transition over.
BUT I CAN'T. Tomtomtomtom. Not working. -_-

I had a dream this morning with the boys & it was so bizarre.
They were walking on some red carpet & there were these small children with them.
& I heard some paparazzi saying it was as if they were trying to be Angelina Jolie.

For some reason I had to watch the kids, in case they ran off. Some job.
Then I realized they were mini versions of the guys, except I only ever saw Tom's & Bill's.

Bill's mini me... Oh, my gosh. He was so cute! He had the spiked hair & was struttin' his stuff like you wouldn't believe.
Tom's of course was the trouble maker that I had to go after.
He had dark colored dreads & a big hoodie on, not to mention, his cooperation skills were horrible.
So I picked him up & carried him, trying to catch up to Tom in my four inch heels D:

& when I did, damn, did he smell good. Some cologne I didn't recognize.
Then my heel got stuck in the grass & Tom didn't wait for me, so I bitched him out right there in front of everyone.

That was that, since my phone started vibrating like crazy on my nightstand. :3